As I was sitting at the side of my bed, elbows on my knees, my head in my hands and the never-ending tears streaming down my face on a night in December of 2004, I felt something that is beyond words. The most amazing feeling of calm overcame me, and right then and there, I knew I would be okay. When I was going through my divorce, for countless nights I would sit at the side of my bed and cry...I had never felt so alone, so scared, and so helpless...until the night I finally was still and let God into my heart. I sat there and prayed...and prayed...and prayed for answers to so many different questions...when I finally stopped and gave it all to Him, He answered. He told me that everything was going to be okay and that I should fear no more. That He would take care of me.
Since that night, my life changed. If I could give anything in the world to each of you, it would be the courage to know God. For me, knowing that I am not in control, was the greatest gift of all. Knowing I can turn to Him for answers to EVERYTHING is amazing. I remember the first few times I went to church at Cornerstone...I sat and cried. Everything they said, I felt they were talking right to me. The world we live in is crazy. The pressure for achieving "The American Dream" is out of control. I lived in the world of want, and it is so evil! Letting God in and letting go of what I thought I should be, and accepting who I really was, was my turning point. I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders...I can lean on Him for strength and know that He is in control. When I finally stopped asking for things, is when the things that really matter in life, came to me...
I love you all! I pray for you each and every day. I hope to talk to or see you soon!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Why a blog?
Dear Tina, Renae, and Jess,
I am writing this blog to you because you are my sisters, my best friends, and I love and care for you all so very, very much. I am almost 32 years old and I'm not sure how I made it through some of those years, but, through each of those "experiences," I have learned so many lessons on life. I feel so compelled to share them with you, especially after a book I have been reading suggested that every woman needs another woman in their lives to sort of "pave the way" for them. I don't know if anything I say will help you or not, but even if it just allows you to "know" me better, I will be happy!
Even though I have learned a lot, I am still learning every single day. Learning how to be happy with who I am, how to be a loving wife, how to be a loving mom, and how to be the Christian woman I strive to be. I am still trying to follow all of the lessons I have learned...I want to help you all as you grow and I want to be there when you have questions, I want to be there to support you in everything you do.
My goal through this blog is to have a way of connecting with each other and learning about each other. It seems like yesterday we were all just a few steps down the hall from each other. Time flies and we never know what tomorrow may bring. So, with that being said, I will blog on different topics as they come to me. For now, I am going to say good night and pray that God blesses this blog as an awesome way of communicating with each other. I love you, my dear little sisters!!
I am writing this blog to you because you are my sisters, my best friends, and I love and care for you all so very, very much. I am almost 32 years old and I'm not sure how I made it through some of those years, but, through each of those "experiences," I have learned so many lessons on life. I feel so compelled to share them with you, especially after a book I have been reading suggested that every woman needs another woman in their lives to sort of "pave the way" for them. I don't know if anything I say will help you or not, but even if it just allows you to "know" me better, I will be happy!
Even though I have learned a lot, I am still learning every single day. Learning how to be happy with who I am, how to be a loving wife, how to be a loving mom, and how to be the Christian woman I strive to be. I am still trying to follow all of the lessons I have learned...I want to help you all as you grow and I want to be there when you have questions, I want to be there to support you in everything you do.
My goal through this blog is to have a way of connecting with each other and learning about each other. It seems like yesterday we were all just a few steps down the hall from each other. Time flies and we never know what tomorrow may bring. So, with that being said, I will blog on different topics as they come to me. For now, I am going to say good night and pray that God blesses this blog as an awesome way of communicating with each other. I love you, my dear little sisters!!
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