The Greatest Gift

As I was sitting at the side of my bed, elbows on my knees, my head in my hands and the never-ending tears streaming down my face on a night in December of 2004, I felt something that is beyond words. The most amazing feeling of calm overcame me, and right then and there, I knew I would be okay. When I was going through my divorce, for countless nights I would sit at the side of my bed and cry...I had never felt so alone, so scared, and so helpless...until the night I finally was still and let God into my heart. I sat there and prayed...and prayed...and prayed for answers to so many different questions...when I finally stopped and gave it all to Him, He answered. He told me that everything was going to be okay and that I should fear no more. That He would take care of me.

Since that night, my life changed. If I could give anything in the world to each of you, it would be the courage to know God. For me, knowing that I am not in control, was the greatest gift of all. Knowing I can turn to Him for answers to EVERYTHING is amazing. I remember the first few times I went to church at Cornerstone...I sat and cried. Everything they said, I felt they were talking right to me. The world we live in is crazy. The pressure for achieving "The American Dream" is out of control. I lived in the world of want, and it is so evil! Letting God in and letting go of what I thought I should be, and accepting who I really was, was my turning point. I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders...I can lean on Him for strength and know that He is in control. When I finally stopped asking for things, is when the things that really matter in life, came to me...

I love you all! I pray for you each and every day. I hope to talk to or see you soon!